HERE IS MY STORY! MY NAME IS GERRI I LIVE IN ENGLISHTOWN N.J.! I AM NEW TO THE SITE LET ALONE TO ANY OF THE GROUPS BUT I AM LOVING IT! BUT ANY HOW MY STORY! I AM 40 YEARS OLD W/ 3 KIDS MY OLDEST I WAS A SINGLE MOM 12,5,AND 31/2! I AM ONLY MARRIED 5 YEARS WE HAD SPLIT UP ALREADY 4 YEARS AGO AND PART OF ME JUST FEELS THAT I MADE A BIG MISTAKE! I FEEL LIKE I LIVE IN A DEAD END ZONE! ALWAYS UNHAPPY AND MISERABLE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO BE A FATHER! ALWAYS YELLING AT ME OR THEM LET ALONE OUR FINACIAL STRUGGLES! I CANT TALK TO HIM AND TELL HIM WHAT BOTHERS ME CAUSE IT TURNS INTO A SELF DEFENSE AND TRYS TO TURN IT AROUND ALWAYS LIKE I AM THE CRAZY ONE! I CAN RELATE AND FEEL LIKE I SHOULD LOVE HIM BUT I THINK I JUST DONT THERES ALOT OF THINGS HE NEEDS TO CHANGE AND WONT OR TRYS AND GIVES UP! UMMMMMMMM YEA HIS WEIGHT HE NEEDS TO SHED ABOUT 40 POUNDS AND DOESNT TRY LONG ENOUGH TO ACCOMPLESH ANYTHING AND I AM TIRED OF IT! AND HE WONDERS WHY I DONT SLEEP W/HIM CALL ME SELFISH BUT APPEARENCE IS EVERYTHING FOR ME AND HE SIMPLY MAKES LIFE DIFFICULT AND IT SHOULD BE A SMOOTHER BOAT RIDE AND ITS NOT!I WORK EXTREAMLY HARD HERE ALL DAY AND GET NO HELP! I JUST FEEL THAT IF I AM GONNA BE ALONE AND DO THINGS ALONE I SHOULD BE! YEA IT WOULD BE HARD BUT ME AND MY KIDS WOULD BE ALOT MORE STABLE! WHAT DO U THINK ANY ADVICE GERRI