I'm posting this to create an open mindedness and maybe you can share this to someone who may need it. By the way i was raised by Catholic parents and came to Christianity with the help of my husband.
I think it is so awsome that you left being an athiest, I was also raised catholic and it is no wonder it is so hard for you to believe with all that goes on in a catholic church. I myself became non-domination and love the freedom of my intimate life with Jesus..congrats and contine