As premiees my sons spent sometimes in NICU and I had seen my share of doctors and went through the my most agonizing time in my life. Even if today there are no more issues (so far) I came out traumatized by having lived through my children suffering.
It is the kind of situation that you understand only if you live through it...
i hear you there,,, both my children spent time in NICU and our daughter spent time in children's for a small birth defect one month after her birth. you can't know that terror til you've gone thru it.