My boyfriend and I have been together 2 years now, and friends since grade school. The band members are also good friends since grade school and all of us get along very well. They are on the brink of making it, and fears I thought I had dealt with are constantly resurfacing. There are good days in terms of worrying and bad but it's started to be mainly bad, and I feel so guilty because he hasn't given me any reason to not trust him it's more faults I find with myself. I have no musical talent, I'm not a producer videographer none of that. Instead I'm an academic, I have an engineering degree and pursuing a law degree at an Ivy League, as well music or any form of art were never my thing, I'm a national athlete in hockey, rugby and lacrosse, have several of my own charitable foundations, a high ranking position at my family's engineering firm, and do everything in my power to help him and the band and make sure he is happy. When I list it all out and look at myself on paper yes I seem like a good catch, but then all I can think is I'm no super model, I'm no singer there is nothing I can do to help his career. There is no reason I can see him not wanting to cheat. Admitingly I am not the most attractive person out there and in your twenties isnt that all that matters? I don't want me being with him to hold him back, and I don't think I'm good enough for him or strong enough for this. How do you all stay confident that you are the best person out there for them? They are gone this week recording, he is returning tomorrow and I still haven't decided if I am walking away from this or not, guidance is appreciated |
