My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and a half. When we first started dating he was in a garage band. Then he got into a new band that started touring. It was hard to have him gone for so long but I was doing everything in my power to be supportive. After him being on the road for a month he decided to break up with me so he could pursue the "rockstar life" aka sleep with other women. He came home after 4 months of touring and begged for me back. I know all the dirty details of what he did and have full access to his social network info. We worked through all the crap and came out stronger from it until he was accepted into another new band. His new band is very well known and comes with a very large following of fans. It has been very difficult for me to ignore the amount of attention he is getting now and all the groupies throwing themselves at him. He does not have anything showing that he is in a relationship because people started harrassing me when they knew I was his girlfriend. It bothers me that to the world he looks single and nobody even knows I exist now. He swears that he will be faithful to me but I need to accept that there will be very pretty girls out there and he will possibly be friends with them or hang out with them. How do I trust him again after what he did on the first tour? How do I not let me jealousy and insecurities get the best of me? Or am I an idiot for thinking he is going to be faithful?

That totally makes sense. I appreciate the brutal honesty. I know that it is my own inner struggle and I need to give him more trust. I understand how the business works and I'm not an idiot thinking he is never going to look at another girl in a sexual way. We are human and find people attractive and have urges. That is not what really bothers me, what does bother me is the lying and sneaking around and spending time with girls one on one without telling me, even if it is just a friend. He was innappropriate with other women while we were together but swears he didn't actually sleep with any of them until after we broke up. My biggest issue with him is trying to get him to tell the truth or not hide things from me. He even addmitted last night that he would rather lie to me about something that he thinks will upset me than deal with me being angry. He hasn't given me an opportunity to prove him wrong cuz he keeps being shady. I even found out that he is meeting a new girl tonight to go to the movies that he met online. When I confronted him about it he said he knew my feelings would be hurt so he didn't want to tell me. I'm trying VERY hard to trust that he wouldn't do anything with these other girls but it bothers me that he lies about it and sneaks behind my back. He leaves on Friday for a month and a half and it scares me that if he is so willing to spend time with other women and lie to me while he is home, then how is it going to be when he's on the road again and I'm not around?