Oh how pretty! I'm in Boulder, Co.
Wow you had it way tough compared to me!! I'm glad that you pulled yourself through it all and came out stronger and I'm sure a much better mother in the end. I've adjusted quite easily to being a mom but that could also be the age thing (I'm 28) and have partied and lived life and I have always known I would change everything if I had a baby. I was also told I couldn't have kids so she was a happy surprise. Plus I have great family support and that makes all the difference. But there have been quite a few times I've cried and have just wanted to breath for one second.
I just keep seeing the fact that her father isn't in her life as his loss but it would have been nice to have the emotional and financial support that he could have lent. It also always breaks my heart when I see daddy's something or other onsies and such but I just keep trying to remember that she has all the love she needs right now and doesn't need an irresponsible man running in and out of her life when it's convienant for him and break her little heart.
Are you in contact with her father? Hayden's sperm donor (as I affectionalty call him) is being tracked down by Colorado state to pay child support but he is in England and British so I don't know what can be done there...
I haven't gone out once without Hayden.. I've gone for a dog walk and a job interview but that is it. She refuses to take the bottle so I can't leave her.. It's a little frustrating because it would be nice to have some me time but until her highness accepts the bottle I'm pretty much doomed!! But I'm glad you got to have a breather! |