I am dating an up and coming musician. I have been for 3 years. We live together, and he makes me the happiest woman on earth. We've talked about marriage and it's in the near future.
I do love him. He is sweet, talented, handsome, and not to mention my best friend. Everything is perfect when he's around.. Everything comes so naturally for us. I tell him everything, he tells me everything... I without a doubt have found the guy I want to spend the rest of my life with..
Ever since I was a little girl, I wanted children, a provider, and a big house. I wanted to cook and clean.. like a 50's house wife. I know it was silly to want that.. but I was raised in a typical all-american home. I was raised to want that security.
Well money and big houses isn't a big deal to me anymore.. I want to have a career... I want to have a social life.
But I do still want a family & a husband that comes home to me.
Lately, my 'provider' has been over in the west coast recording & touring. I'm stuck here completely alone in the midwest. I go to University, to work, then home... and that's over and over again. Sure my friends help.. but I can't stop missing him. I feel like he's not even real anymore.
Please tell me your experiences with musicians.
Tell me is it worth the torture? Or should I get out while I can and stop wasting time? |