So I just had the most beatiful baby girl. My frist and WOW HUGE Wonderful! And within a month and a half, my Husband calls me while I am at the store to tell me CPS has gone to his Ex-wifes house and removed his son from her custody and he will be bringing him home to stay.
(His son from a previous marriage is 5 years old) And though he has issues from some of the things that happened to him with his mom, He is a very sweet boy.
I feel bad, guilty I guess. I was enjoying my bonding time with my baby girl. the last 7 months have been hard. I have been trying to make sure I help my baby grow and develop. But I don't want to make Nathan feel like he isn't welcome or wanted. Its absouletely sweet how much the two of them love each other. He loves his baby sister. And he is a sweet boy, friendly and kind, But there are so many behavioral problems with him that I am at my wits end. I was just learning how to take care of a baby. I don't know how to care for a 5 year old, much less one that is having problems adjusting himself.
And do I ever feel weird about the "I love you" words with him. I don't want to exclude him. I want him to know we are a family. And I do care about him, he is very bright and sweet. But he isn't my child, and she is. I can't seem to help it. I feel so much for her. But I can't seem to bring that same level of bonding between him and I. I don't know what to do about that.
I don't know if anyone else has ever been in this position or if anyone has any ideas let me know. |