Hello I'm new here and I am so glad I found this group! I am a sahm of 5 kids...and let me just say that even typing I have 5 kids starts to send me into a panic....I didn't have all 5 kids so that being said here comes the stress.  I am engaged and he's a great guy after a failed marriage I didn't think I'd ever find what I've found in my fiance. This is not to say he's perfect because honestly he's not alot of times I look at him like he's one of the kids which annoys the crap outta me.  My mother says "What do you have to be stressed out about, you brought urself into your situation". This is true to an extent but sometimes I feel like why can't you be a lil more supportive mom?  

My children situation is kinda weird and I hear alot of people tell me that what I did was super great and not many people could do what I did. Really not to be rude when I hear those things I feel like pulling my hair out and screaming you have no idea! Out of the 5 children that I have only 2 are physically from my body both are boys and one is 8 and the other is 2. Ok that might sound like well her fiance has 3 kids then...yea not so simple. My fiance has 2 children one of which he has custody of and calls me mom and the other we only see on the weekend..Oddly enough the "weekend warrior" child isn't counted in that 5 because we see him so infrequently I can't seem to bond with him at all and tend to forget he exists..the other 2 children that live with us our my fiances nieces. They are 16 and 14 and being that they are teens makes it even more stressful for me not to mention all the baggage that has come with them.  All in all I try to treat ALL the kids as my own and they all call me mom. Lately though I feel like running away. I'm hardly sleeping due to the fact I'm ALWAYS stressed out and yelling and screaming and even crying at times. Part of me wants to hide in a hole and nvr come out the other part of me says you can handle this suck it up princess. I don't know what else to do to release the stress and it's gotten so bad I sleep maybe if I'm lucky 3 hours a night. I can't really pin point one thing I'm stressed about its just alot of things that create one big stress ball.  Being depressed doesn't really help the situation either. 

hi my name is jaimie and i understand u 100% about being so stressed u can not sleep. i an a sahm of on 4 year old daughter with special needs. we just found out that she has ADHD Disruptive behavior disorder, oppositional defiant disorder, and speech apraxia. she run on as little as 3 hours sleep but no more then 6 hours. she is always on the go and never listens to us it is one of her disorders, she can not follow any rules and we are always fighting. my husband does not help ne bc he works 14 hours a day 6 days a week and he does not know what he can do i am basically a single parent. needless to say my house is always a mess. the thing i do to help me relax a bit is at night i do a lot of crying and i take a nice hot bath with lavander after my daughter goes to bed, and i think of happy thoughts. i also tense up my muscles and relax them 5 time while im laying down in bed it seems to help me i hope it will help you out some as well. u can add me as a friend and ill be there anytime u need to vent