Let me start by saying hello everyone! I am new here and just wanted to leave a post so you all can learn a little bit about me. I am a stay at home mother of 5 children. I only physically had 2 of these 5 children and sometimes I feel like what did I get myself into...at any rate, for as long as I can remember I have suffered from depression it started as a child and went on into my adulthood. Doctors have perscribed meds and they just don't seem to work no matter how long I take them.  Most days it takes everything in me just to get up and take a shower and alot of days I don't even make it that far I won't lie. Sometimes I feel like it's a lost cause and I'll just have to deal with it the rest of my life and other days I know that it could be alot worse and I'm thankful for all that I have and all that I have become. I don't always feel depressed and sometimes I wonder if thats odd or not. I can go about 2 wks feeling fine then the depression just takes over again and consumes my entire being. I hate that I'm like this because I feel like I'm showing major weakness to my children and I want to get it under control but I'm at a loss. I know alot of it has to do with stress but I cannot seem to unstress if that makes sense? Well thats just a little about me....hope to talk to u soon.