Today was my first day back on the job as a teacher. (full-time) I have been home for the last 3 1/2 years with my 3 1/2 and 2 year old boy. Today was very overwhelming, emotionally. I missed my boys a lot. I just don't know how I'm going to balance working outside of the home and giving my boys everything they need emotionally. I was gone only one day..left at 7 came home at 330 and felt that i missed out on a lot with them. Both gave me the tightest, sweetest hugs when they saw me. Luckily, my husband and his parents are the ones taking care of them while i am gone...however, i can't help but feel that no one can do it as good as me...i just hope that i adjust, they adjust and that they continue to be well-rounded well-adjusted, happy go lucky kids. Man this is tough...i bitched when i was a stay at home mom that i'm overwhelmed, i miss my job, etc and now i am working again and i'm already missing being a stay at home mom...how am i going to juggle work and my kids? how will i not feel guilty? i just want to feel at peace and know that my kids are thriving and are truly okay while i'm gone

I can't speak to being a stay at home mom for a long period but I went back to work after 10 weeks for my first and the first two months were very tough.  I guess we all adjusted to the schedule and he is a well adjusted boy, now 20 months.  The fact that you have your spouse and grandparents watching them is a great plus.  You know they are in great hands even though it isn't your own.  It is very tough but you will work through - just enjoy the time with them when you come home from work.  You will do great with being a working mom just know that it will take time to adjust.