I SOOOO know where you are coming from. I'm 37 and a first time mom to a 6 month old baby boy named Devin. For most of my 20's I absolutely did NOT want kids. When I hit my 30's I was at least willing to entertain the thought. My pregnancy was planned and my hubby was like a kid waiting for Christmas throughout, while I was still a bit...removed, is the best word I can think of. Like you, I love my boy to death. Also like you though, it was an adjustment. I agree that it is tiring trying to entertain them all day long. Also, as busy as he keeps me, I must admit that I was often (and still am sometimes) bored (gasp! can I say that?!). I think it's just because I'm so used to working f/t and using a different part of my brain.
My son has also been challenging on the sleeping front, especially as far as daytime naps go. My hubby and I invested in a bouncy seat, a rocker, a swing, a baby einstein activity centre, a jolly jumper, a walker, etc., basically every kind of contraption to keep him active and stimulated. At 2 months though it is a bit harder as they don't yet have the physical capability for some of these things. However, I made a very conscious effort (and still do) to go visiting friends and family who were only to happy to entertain my son - and how it helps time pass! If your baby doesn't protest, I would allow her some "alone" time - I've read that it's actually good for their development, rather than hovering in her space all day. I felt a bit guilty doing so at first but now I can see that my son really does enjoy his own space for periods of time. It's true what they say, it will get better - especially after you pass the 3 month mark! Hope this helps. |