Is there anyone out there that can honestly say that there are times that they just want to lock themselves in the bathroom and hide.  I decided to quit a wonderful corporate job two years ago and I'm trying to lear how to adjust to my life as a stay at home mom of three.  17, 12, and 8.  I feel like there are times that I just want to get on a plane and not come back. I love my kids don't get me wrong but let's face it who doesn't need some alone time and just time to get away with your husband or yourself for fun.  I feel like I've lost my joy and feel stressed out all the time.  How do I get rid of the stress and feel sane? My older daughter thinks I don't pay enough attention to her.  I've been married to my husband for five years and we have custody of his children who they call me Mom and know that they have another mom who abandoned them and has been in and out of prison.  The don't have a relationship with her and haven't seen her in almost 7 years.  I just don't know how to be there for everyone and do everything.  I lost my brother to drugs 2 years ago and my mom to cancer shortly after that.  Which was the deciding factor of me quiting my job to be with my family because life is too short.  However, I feel unappreciated and it's a thankless job.  

Some days I have a cocktail to relieve the stress and have high blood pressure and am taking medication for that.  My doctor gave me xanax to take when things are stress.  But at times when I take one then I will take another one and I'll forget that I've take one and then my family thinks I'm taking too many.  So I can't win for losing.  But honestly there are times that I just want to forget everything and relax.  URGG!! Does anyone feel this way and understand what I'm going thru?  I need to figure out a way to relieve my stress without medicating myself.  I know; go for a walk, work out but seriously?? when you are a stay at home mom there are tons of things to always do.

Does anyone else feel this way??