This was a turning point for me.  I picked up a book called A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle.  I read it feverishly.  I devoured it.  It spoke to my soul’s searching.  And I found it to be the exact message that I needed in order to get my mind on the right track and the ego under control.  I picked up another book called How to Heal Your Life by Louise Hay.  I loved this too.  I found that I had to develop a more loving relationship with myself in order to heal the messages that I was feeding myself.  I then picked up all the books on my bookshelf which I had put aside in order to be a mom and I reopened them again, with better insight.  Author’s such as Paramahansa Yogananda, Wayne Dyer, David Hawkins, these were my teachers before I started my family.  Looking back I wonder what happened.  Why did I let all of my ideas and searching go unattended to?  And for me, I felt as if that because I had chosen to become a mother that I had to come down to Earth and make something of myself, get our life in order and make a secure foothold from which our children could grow more easefully from.

Please share your turning point with the group.

I spent a lot of my life trying to be who others wanted me to be, from childhood through my first two marriages.  I specifically remember , toward the end of my second marriage, I was trying to "fix" me in order to keep it together.  Finally, I realized, "I like me, I am a good person". This was a huge turning point for me because it was then that I decided that I no longer wanted to be tolerated by someone, I wanted to be loved and admired for who I am.  Prior to that point I guess I didn't know that I was lovable. 

I am now happily married, almost 8 years now.  I am also very proud of accomplishments, in my personal and professional lives. That was a major turning point for me.

I think I am understanding your point.  I have felt this need to be accepted and loved by my husband.  I realized that this was not going to happen...not because of who I was or wasn't in his mind...but how he was choosing to experience his life!  It is sad that two people cannot come together on a higher ground, but I understand where he is coming from! 

Yes, I feel like this was part of my turning point. Knowing that I cannot control what others think or do, and then letting it go...and allowing my true self (which is like you said very lovable) to step forward!

Thanks for your reflection, it brings a lot together for me!

Jennifer