I'm a SAHM and my daughter is currently 14 months old.  As much as I know I am very fortunate to be able to stay home and raise my daughter and as much I love watching her grow every minute, I'm having terrible feelings of anxiety especially towards my spouse.  I am extremely jealous over his work relationships.  I'm mostly jealous over his female colleagues.  I've never met them and none of the stories are weird, I'm just jealous that I have very little interaction with others and his life hasn't changed much.  I have a very hard time listening to any work stories, especially if I hear the same name more than once.  You can say that trust is always an issue with me, as I never trust any man 100%.  My partner probably can be trusted and we have had discussions about this - but the jealousy remains.  I cannot afford to go back to therapy.  I really need advice from others who either feel the same way I do and how they work it out or from others who do not understand how I feel at all and maybe can help me rationalize.  When we discussed having a child, I never imagined I would feel this isolated.  I join groups like Music Together and have a few friends in the area.  Most of my friends live in Staten Island, which the toll becomes very expensive so visits are limited.  I used to go to the park but with the cold weather now, that's not an option.  I would like to go to the library at least but my daughter naps at those age-appropriate times.  Please help with some advice.  I know that when the time is right and I'm back at work, I'll have the issues of separation anxiety from my daughter.  But at the current time, I fear that I'm going to mess up my relationship with my anxieties.