First posts are always hard on blogs and I haven't ever figured out why, but I guess it all has to begin somewhere. 

I'm not sure why I came over here.  The entire attraction to a forum called "Bad Parenting" or what... maybe just some likemindedness of a sort.  Completely uprooting myself from one life and going into another has shifted so many things and a lot of the time I feel like I'm floating around.  Although my new life is the manifestation of all the dreams I've ever had, somehow having all your dreams is harder than dealing with them when they were mere fantasy.  Stranger things have happened I guess.  

I used to work for an insurance corporation and now I'm a stay at home mom.  I'm still trying to get used to it and run into hours of boredom and one person can only watch so many hours of Law & Order.  I even homeschool but it still somehow doesn't even out to the fast paced life I'm used to.  Some days it's a blessing and some days I go completely stir crazy.  I'm sure I will regret saying that once the new baby comes. 

I guess I just need some place to 'be' at.  Before I came here and into this life I used to live and breath the machinima communities and work so much with the artists and developers of gaming companies.  This along side my real job, but it was where I 'was' and where I belonged at the time.  So maybe I'll find some place to just 'be' here and maybe there are people here like me, who knows.  Otherwise at least it's a good read and maybe I'll actually learn a thing or two since I'm a decade out of raising a new born and seem to have completely forgotten what it is to be a new mommy and not just a girl who has always been one.