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| exhausted all the time no reason to be |
 I'm a very lucky girl.I come from poverty-a single mom struggling to me being a waitress for 5 yrs to partying all my earned money away and loosing savings in a horrible marriage to finally getting freedom and a high paying job and social life to lots of responsibility as a mom. But I have everything a woman wants. a part-time babysitter, housekeepers, a loving man who wines me and dines me almost every night- a long hours working man-three vacations as of next weekend without the baby and yet i'm exhausted all the time. My baby is 5 months old and naps once a day. I'm so tired I want to sleep so bad during his nap but instead I force myself 5 days a week to workout and tone up. I'm just beat from saying good bye to sleeping in, the responsibilities of entertaining a screaming baby . I could have easily have gone through life wihtout children. I'm unconventional and white picket fences, white wedding dresses and babies were not my dream. I love to be party be wild, laugh, drink, dance, and sleep alot and watch tv. all that is out that window as it is with all of you and I know I have so much to be grateful for. then why i am I always so exhausted and globs of my hair are falling out? I'm always grumpy and i never feel like going anywhere because the car seat is to heavy to carry in and out of the house and a pain in the ass to get out of the car for more than one stop,. so much of a bother I stay home. i'm so lonely because we moved to a very conservative area where I don't know anyone and don't see any of these people being that fun. I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to be different. I'm so lucky my baby is healthy. It seems like i'm complelety drained after a long day of being with him but yet my man can come home from a long day at work and want to go straight out to dinner and such. what's wrong with this picture. If i'm home just with a baby and he's at work "working hard" all day and never exercises why does he have so much energy and he's in such a good mood. They say a baby changes your life for the better. I'm confused how can all the things i'm experiencing be better? no way- I had a great life before. that phrase is strange. a more realistic phrase is "I had my time now it's all about him" but I regret ending "my time" because it was the time of my life. i suffer from depression and loneliness now. sex is out the window. I used to go dance all night and have sex with good looking men. can someone please tell me how this is my dream come true and much better than my last life. or just tell me the name of the antidepressant i can go on. |
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It seems you have a hard time reconcile your old life with your new life. Becoming a mother is a choice and as every choice means that you have to give up on something.
Having said that you can still make time to do things that are not compatible with the baby but you enjoy and make you a happier person. You just have to accomodate your schedule differently.
From my experience, having children gave me to experience another type of social life that it is equally valuable. With kids you can still be out there, meet people and talk adult stuff. Chidrearing is not a prison, it is an opportunity of viewing the world from a different angle.
I think you feel exhausted because you have not find how to balance your life between your needs and your responsabilities but once you sort out the different aspects and you prioritize you will feel much more serene.
Vero |
| posted by Vero on 06/23/2007 |
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